Suicidal War

Every day I wake up bitter theres a blaring overhead
I fear for every second my decease is what I dread
I foresee how I will die each time I close my eyes
Imagination runs wild to my friends I have to lie

This is easy so they say killing the enemy every day
No one sees my pain as I keep it locked away
This is easy so they say killing the enemy every day
No one sees my pain as I keep it locked away

No longer can I take this torture in my mind
My sanity I have lost the bullet I will find
It only takes one shot to end this pain of mine
It only takes one shot to end this pain of mine

Im not as strong as these men I once assumed I was
The power to fight with honour features in my prayers
But by no means were they answered
Its all been left inside
I have to labour on
My beliefs I still must hide

Should I just end it all with this pistol in my hand?
I presume I will go on to a more peaceful land
Goodbye my loving family I m sure well meet again
But in this world of suffering is a place I couldnt stay
No more will I delay

(spoken report)
Reports of another suicide bombing just in. At around 8.30 this morning, a young girl though to be about 12years of age entered a busy suburb wearing a vest packed with explosives, killing herself, a British soldier and 17 civilians. This is the second attack this week in this war torn region. More than 140 car bombings occurred in May, according to a senior U.S. military intelligence official that exceeds the previous record of 135 in April. There were nearly 60 suicide bombings in May, down from 69 in April